The Choice of my Displacement

As we started the year we began talking about find one's 'place'. A person searching to find their place has many variables to their story. It could be that they want new scenery, meet new people, or do something that many people before them have not. We have now moved on to discuss about displacement in class. This subject is of special interest to me, because this is the first time that I have been 'displaced'. Just like everyone else, choosing a college was something that consumed most of my senior year in high school; applying, constantly worrying whether I got accepted, and whether it would be the right fit. I definitely knew that I was not alone in this, because my high school that had close to 600 students in my class alone and over 2000 students in the school, and there was a school in my district that had even more students. I have always gone to big, public schools my whole life; that was what my parents decided to do and its always been that way. As senior year rolled around, this was a chance to do something different; continue my education in BIG, public universities or small, private colleges? This school was a change that I accepted and maybe in this displacement I would find my place. All the time leading up to coming, I always kept thinking that this school was different to what I grew up in, I was worried I would not find my place here. Someone said to that it was great that I was venturing into displacement, because then I would know what I am made of, what I can handle, and whether I can strive in places that are drastically different. While the environment here is different, I don't feel like it is displacement, but its harder to find my place, now that I am not one of many, but rather its just myself, its been hard. Sometimes I wonder where everyone is because it can be deserted at times, but at the same time it forces me not to hide and earn my own voice that was always clouded by other people. While the word 'displacement' sounds bad, I chose to use it to my advantage, to make me see what I am capable of, whether I am a well-rounded person to survive and strive in conditions different from my norm.